As I have been up all night perhaps this is not the best time to write this post. As I am working to gain knowledge and to bring myself to a higher level I find I met with resistance. From others and from myself. I am not sure if this is a normal reaction to the changes. I am obtaining the knowledge but at times I have difficulty with the application. I also have noticed that sometimes those that appear or claim to have reached a certain level have a certain arrogance about them. This appears if I ask questions, or express some concern and the reply I always seem to get is that if I think negatively then I will attract negative, and that my thoughts manifest. This I already know.
With the understanding that each is on their own path I do feel that it is not a bad thing to offer support and encouragement. That is why I am trying to cultivate connections with those who either have knowledge or are seekers, like myself. But it does become difficult trying to sort through those who have made a business of enlightenment and those who are true teachers.
A major reason I became dissatisfied with organized religion was due to the fact that people always seem to try to out-do each other. Such as I am more Christian or more Muslim than you. I am also finding this in the conscious community. Those who make the judgement that they are more conscious than the next. Oh my head is spinning.
Perhaps I am hoping to find a magic key that will make everything align. Some bit of information that will click the switch and keep it on. I know this is not how things work. I do understand it is a continuing process. It has been a lonely journey. But I will continue on.
Thanks for reading my rantings.